Today doesn't look like what we had hoped for, prayed for, dreamed of, and/or anticipated. We fly out, leaving our son behind once again. Words cant express the emotions we both are feeling. Our hearts have been ripped out of our chest, and we leave this country with so many questions. Some people say "never question God," but today we do. We don't question His faithfulness, we don't question His Goodness, or His plan for us and our son's life. But we can't help but question the reason our prayers and your prayers were chosen not to be answered. And we believe that our God is big enough to handle that. We know the story is much bigger than today and the days to come; and in that, we find peace. We are confident and promised that this story is STILL being written. Praise God it is not over. And praise God that He is the author and we are not.
We do rejoice in the fact that God provided us the quality time with Rowen before his baby brother is born. The time may not had been on our turf and looked like what we wanted, but we wouldn't trade this past month of quality time as a family of three for anything! And we never would have had it, if we would not have pursued the Non-Immigrant Visa route. We know our son more now than ever before, and our love for him has grown beyond explanation and beyond our comprehension.
Today and the days to come will be the hardest days we have ever faced, but we continue to choose faith and we continue to trust that His plan is still prevailing. We go home empty handed, but one thing is for sure, we were faithful and obedient to the best of our knowledge; and we will always be able to tell Rowen that his mommy and daddy did EVERYTHING we could do to get him home as quick as possible. We're confident........
that one way or another, this "BOY" will come "HOME"! Thank you again for the overwhelming support and prayers! We are forever indebted to the hundreds of people that have covered us in prayer. Your support has and will continue to carry us on this journey. He is able! Claiming....
"The joy of the Lord is our strength."
Nehemiah 8:10
SO Sad for you! I promise to continue to pray & pray for this boy to be in Alabama soon with you!
ReplyDeleteDear sweet friend..the tears are flowing as I read this. My heart aches for you as only a mother who has experienced exactly the heartache you are now feeling can know. I am praying God's understanding, His peace and His assurance of that huge plan that you and I both know is so much bigger than our eyes can comprehend; all you know is you have loved Him as hard and pursued him/Him as hard as you humanly know possible. I feel your heartache. I pray perseverance for the road ahead and the ability to cling to the only stability, our Lord, who led you to Rowen, gave you a heart for the orphan in Rowen and allowed you to fall in love with His love for Rowen. I pray these promises over you tonight...Isaiah 30: 15, 18-22...Our most holy Lord longs to be gracious to you and will show you the way in his time...love you guys...praying and will continue to do so...may we all be worthy of His call as we face various trials...
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