Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Today Was

We lay in our fifth bed in three weeks, with only the light from the hall sneaking past the door into our room.  We try to turn on the tv to distract our racing minds, ironically, some how there is no power in our room.  Power in the hall. No power in our room!? Haiti. 
Regardless, coincidence? We think not.  God is whispering, “yall need to debrief.”  So, lets go... 
Today was that day that we have been waiting on for 20ish days.  Today was that day that I(Payt) took a leave of absence from work for.  Today was that day that Heather had spent week 29, 30, and 31 of pregnancy, uncomfortably in a foreign country for. Today was Monday, May 7th.  Today was yes or no.  Today was “the” day!

Well, today was not what we hoped for. Today was not an easy day.  Today was a hard day.  Today was a no day. Today was a day when saying “I trust you God” took a little bit more. Today was a day of disappointment. Today was a day of raw surrender. Today was a day of a lot of questions and questioning.  Today was a day that our knees felt the floor beneath us. Today was a day of saying no to a bitter heart. Today was a day of cold reality.  Today did not look like it was “supposed” to. 

But, you know what!?  As we lie here, awake with no sign of sleep or power, pondering.... 

TODAY JUST BECAME TOMORROW, literally!!!  His mercies are new today.  His strength is made perfect in our weakness.  So much to be thankful for! 

May 7th is the past.  It is what it is.  He is still able. He is still faithful.  He still sets the lonely in families.  
Our boy WILL come home!!!  
Thank you, with all that we are, for your support and prayers! 
“If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”  Daniel 3:17-18

1 comment:

  1. Beautifully written Payton. You may not know me but I too have felt the crushing heartbreak of the "no" days. Praying the Lord renews you in the quiet to press on to the day of "yes" in accordance with His plans. Through our journey and our daughter's ultimate journey to her true home, we learned that faith of a mustard seed can feel like the weight of the world in times of "no". Prayers for strength to you all...